Thoughts of a stay-at-home Mom

I have a lot of things to do today, so is the life of a stay at home mom! I have a mountain-full of laundry to fold, toys to pick-up, rooms to clean and lunch to cook. I have never been this busy and yet I found myself just pressing the pause button and NOT do anything except cook of course. I find myself using the TV as a babysitter when I swear up and down that I will try homeschooling. I just don't have the patience to home school and I am going crazy NOT talking to an adult. It's a lonely job. Yes, it is rewarding being 24/7 with kiddos but darn it I crave for adult conversation.

I have enrolled Caleb in a toddler school, where we go twice a week, there are moms in there but I am not the bubbly type so I don't talk that much. I have to add though that I am the ONLY asian mom there and they seem to know each other. These moms are toting there LV and Michael Cors bags. I got the shock of my life when I went there the first time, I thought I'd be seeing soccer moms honestly but what I'm seeing are made-up moms make-up and all. Think the housewives of orange county type. Okay, there are simple moms there too but I am too shy to spark up a conversation. I guess I need to go outside my box.

I'll be enrolling Caleb in other classes such as swimming and cooking at YMCA. The weather is getting nicer so I'm okay with that. So now here comes my dilemma, Yiek might be taking a job in NYC (had to junk NC plans more on that later) and with that option I am now thinking of going back to work. Should I wait a year or go back to work now? If we were to go NC nanny-care is not available but now that we are staying in NJ, I can arrange for personal nanny to take care of Zaia. One of the reasons why I quit working was to avoid what Caleb went through when he went to daycare at 10 months. He had chronic ear infections and still has them from time to time. He gets sick once a month and last year he was given 10 antibiotics, yes 10!!! I did not want that happening to Zaia so I opted to stay home but now that I can have a personal nanny, thoughts of going back to work is creeping slowly.